I forgive me

4.22.13

Part of being a grownup

Is learning to forgive yourself

Kitty Carlisle Hart said

Each morning she would look

In the mirror and say

I forgive you Kitty

Neurotic Parent

4.20.2013

So hard, it is so hard

To let go, let go and let god

Oldest son wanted to come home

For the weekend home so I went

To gather him this morning

He wanted to get together with someone

I didn’t ask who, it is my not my

Natural instinct but he will be 20

In a few weeks

I am working on giving autonomy

Also gave him back the car after

Months of not having it. I took it away

During winter break after too many

Traffic cam tickets and he didn’t

Want to take it back to school

He said he was too anxious but today

He drove to visit with who knows who

And it has been 8 hours and I

Need to just get a life and let it go                        

Not sure to be pissed that he has lost

A whole day of college studying

Or has something happened

Or this is just me being the

Neurotic parent that I am

No Peace

4.19.2013

Is it mental illness?

That caused the killers we have seen who

Seem to have it all, nice homes

Education, hell they have food

And they go on rampages killing

Anyone and everyone

Is it the plethora of guns and weapons?

That give carte blanche to those who

Want take what they want because they never

Will be part of the haves

Is it religion that has been corrupted?

That is able to attract the souls who are

Scared and lonely and have no hope

And purports to give their lives meaning

By believing that killing and maiming

Will get them peace

TV Shaping Our Values

4.17.13

I found that MASH reruns are on and now

I tape them or oh right that was the olden days

Now I DVR them. I remember them all

Watched each one at least a dozen times

But the message is never old, just like

The original Star Trek. These shows shaped

My values just as much as going to a

Lutheran church before there was the teaching

Of hate of the other, before there was

Focus on sins, rather than on being a good

Person, when WWJD really meant something

I am not oppressed by my religious upbringing

But informed by it just like by some TV shows

That actually had a message along with humor

Or pathos. I wonder what will become

Of the generation who thinks that being a teen mom

Or a hillbilly fisherman is better than being a

Humanitarian or realizing that we don’t have to

Look alike to love alike.

Or

4.16.13

So I missed a day

Writing a poem every day

Yesterday the muse was gone

Didn’t even think about it

Watching the blast in Boston

Over and over and over again

Not quite like 9.11 when I had

To turn off the TV when the kids

Came in the room

I wonder if they remember

How I came and got them from school

At first the schools were dismissing

Early but then they decided kids were safer

In school rather than school buses

Remember we are very close to DC

But I called their other mother and I

Wanted them with me and she said go get them

Which I did. If it was the end of the world

I wanted us to be together.

It wasn’t. It usually isn’t in the US

But how many 8 year olds are killed

All over the world, every day.

In Syria or Afghanistan or Rwanda or

Or Or Or

Unrequited Love

4.14.13

I awake and your green eyes are staring in to mine

I reach out for you but you leave me

You come back immediately wanting affection

I try and caress you but you bite my hand

Unrequited love, no, I know you love me

It is just a cat thing