4.20.2013
So hard, it is so hard
To let go, let go and let god
Oldest son wanted to come home
For the weekend home so I went
To gather him this morning
He wanted to get together with someone
I didn’t ask who, it is my not my
Natural instinct but he will be 20
In a few weeks
I am working on giving autonomy
Also gave him back the car after
Months of not having it. I took it
away
During winter break after too many
Traffic cam tickets and he didn’t
Want to take it back to school
He said he was too anxious but
today
He drove to visit with who knows
who
And it has been 8 hours and I
Need to just get a life and
let it go
Not sure to be pissed that he has
lost
A whole day of college studying
Or has something happened
Or this is just me being the
Neurotic parent that I am